I hope you all see how incredibly fickle i am. Blogging and then stopping and blogging all over again.
Remembering correctly, i did say my life was getting boring and i had nothing to blog about anymore as i didn't want too much of my personal life getting out here.
But i guess now the time out did me some good both emotionally and mentally. Not gonna dwell on that, for the sake of not wanting to bore you guys out.
So here i am again, back and blogging, hopefully consistently :D
Sorry ah, i didn't know that people still actually visit my blog. hehee.. was actually thinking of closing down because i realised too much of myself thats going to the public isnt a very good thing at all.. but however, i believe that if you're here, you're friends of mine and would come with an open mind.. however, if you came to snoop, shame on you but its okay.. you're free to admire my less-than-exciting (but still more interesting than yours i bet) life and take refuge from your socially lacking life. it's totally O-KAY.
see. i'm a nice person what.
:D
Well anyway, finals is around the corner and i have seriously been in uni for too long and just have got to graduate soon so i'll be busy doing revisions and right after that, will be going on a holiday to KL and Singapore.. so more interesting posts then yeah :)
Yes, so after my very intelligent previous post, Boyfriends are Like Shoes (i find it very witty, thank you very much :D), i kinda thought to myself..
.. then what do i want?
After taking a short break at the Empire Hotel in Bandar (heavenly, i tell you.. extremely theurapatic [did i spell that right? hehe]) i guess i kinda figured out what i want in a life partner. I used the term life partner because for me, when i get into a relationship, i want it to be long. To be for life. Not a wham-bam-thank-you-maam kinda stint - okay. that sounded bad.. allow me to rephrase.. hehee.. erm, not something that you just take on because you just don't wanna be lonely. I tend to *try* to think far, building castles in the air or what i would say, defining my goals in life to map out a direction for a future that i can see myself being happy and fulfilled with the man that i started out from scratch with. I know it's a bit too early, as this is only one chapter of my life and a new one will be opening soon after i graduate.. but it's never too early to start planning. :)
1. He has to be thoughtful. 2. Knows that Abercrombie & Fitch is NOT a dessert, and Smashing Pumpkins is NOT a halloween ritual. o.O" 3. Endure my lil Momo's leg humps with a smiling face. heh heh. 4. Can endure my police report requests. :D 5. Be themselves around my family and friends. 6. Hardworking and work towards goals.. so i can see myself with you in the future. 7. Able to get his priorities straight.. nightlife do NOT come first. ergh. 8. Won't hesitate to show little gestures of affection around families and friends. 9. Won't mind me finishing up his plate of char kueh teow and abandoning my own just because 'his one tends to taste better' eventhough it's the exact same thing. 10. Won't fcking whine and cry. God. I hate guys who try to baby talk me .. 11. Won't mind going shopping with me and waiting tirelessly without a single complain uttered.. actually i dont really mind if we both go our separate ways while shopping and meet up later.. so i guess i don't want a guy who DUMPS ME IN ORCHARD ROAD BY MYSELF JUST TO SLEEP AFTER HE HAS FINISHED HIS SHOPPING! happened before. asswipe. 12. Tells me i'm beautiful despite having just woken up with messy bed hair (and SO not the sexy kinds), morning breath and without eyebrows. 13. Won't mind me farting ha ha and actually smelling it will get extra brownie points ha ha. 14. Actually wakes up in the morning.. i hate guys who wake up when its mid noon.. shows a lazy trait in em. no no. 15. Able to accept my criticisms when we exchange creative opinions on other people and not call me a bitch because he actually understands that everyone has their own opinions and a remark such as 'that girl dresses weird' doesn't mean that i deem myself superior and dislike that person. These are just O-B-S-E-R-V-A-T-I-O-N-S based on myyyyyyyyyy perspective.
These are what i want to own/accomplish in this lifetime. Some may be far fetched and down right absurd, but it never hurts to dream right? :D
1. To own any model of the Mercedes SLK. 2. To watch a Worlcup match LIVE. Just watching the energy on the tv is amazing. 3. To party in Ibiza when my physique still allows me to. 4. Wear sweet empire cut and halter neck and tube dresses when pregnant. :P :P :P 5. To visit South Africa one day. 6. To sit on those cute little boat rides down the canal in Venice (preferably with a loved one of the opposite sex :P) 7. To send my kids to football matches in a cute little SUV and watching those matches with oversized shades and preferably still with a physique to die for. 8. Be called a hot momma. hee. 9. To have pot lucks and bbqs in my backyard with close friends and watch our kids play in the pool or sand pit. 10. To bring my parents to Turkey again.
Sometimes you go out to the mall, not really wanting to be getting any shoes, but you see something that catches your eye.
You hold it, take some time scrutinizing it, seeing if there's any flaws or not.. but sometimes you might be a bit rushed or just too ecstatic that you found something which you PRESUMED was perfect and might overlook or miss some defects or imperfections..
So you try it on, and to your delight, the shoe fits.
After that you keep wearing the new pair of shoes.. and you're happy with it.. cos obviously, it's new. And all new things are presumably perfect.
But as time passes, a few weeks, a few months or maybe a few years later.. you start to realise the shoe just won't give that perfect fit anymore. It starts to cut you in the flesh, or the heels break, the straps loosen, the colour changes, and lets you down one too many times.. you fix it, it stays put a while, but breaks again a few days later..
So what do you do ?
You throw it away just like what i did..
..and try not to look at it anymore when you are bound to remember all the past escapades and memories you had with that pair of killer heels.. because it HAS already been confirmed by the cobbler that it is impossible to be fixed.. even if it could be fixed, it'll break again.. again and again, again and again.
Goodbye you unreliable pair of Vinccis.
Time to find myself new, reliable Jimmy Choos and Manolo Blahniks.
Since I met you, I've fallen in love with you at least a hundred different reasons. Sometimes I fall in love with you when I watch you doing something you enjoy, something you're so involved in that you're unaware of my presence. Sometimes I fall in love with you when I listen to you talk to other people. Whether you're being interesting and funny or warm and caring and genuinely concerned, you have a way of making people feel better with nothing more than your words. Sometimes I fall in love with you just thinking about you, remembering all the memories we've made..... falling in love for the first time, staying in love during the rough times, finding more to love about each other everyday. And whenever I think about the wonderful things that lie ahead of us, I fall totally and completely in love with you all over again...
~Renee Duvall~
Sweet, no? :D
I'm not jiwang can. Just thought this is meaningful and im afraid that i will forget it and a tad lazy to write it down so i figured id just post this up as a storage place, heh heh. :)
The past few days has been a whirlwind of emotions and a potpourri of moodswings for me .. i think my little heart cant withstand all the 'excitement' from life anymore as i grow older and older and watch the younger flock doing all the things i used to do and yawn about now (edeh.)
ANYWAY, whenever i needed a mood booster, i know i can count on the Two Chinese Boys .. if you haven't heard of them, just take a look at this.. heheheeheeeeeeee.. and you'll get the idea..
Hrm. I know it has been two weeks since i last updated but i can't help it..
I've seem to have found a new hobby..
Libraries..
Hee..
Yes, you read right..
Yeah yeah, pairing me with libraries is just like pairing bananas with ketchup (by the way, have you tried it? It tastes amazing.. hee hee).
Term just started and i'm seriously tired of having to go through the past few years when i attend classes when i don't know anybody and having to practically beg classmates to let me be groupmates with them after receiving incredilous looks from them which screams "Ha? If i let you in, i'll probably fail!" just because i don't have the .. erm.. studious looks.. but hey i not bad one can? What i lack in mathematical skills i replace with presentation skills.
Hrmpf.
Thats why i have decided to take on a more studious way of uni life and started hanging out in the library working on up coming tutorial questions and reading up before lectures to wow those biatches of their seats.
And boy did i love it.
Kiasu bah ok, kiasu..
So far my hardworking streak has lasted for more than 3 days which was usually the case before when at the start of every semester, i'd always tell myself that i'd work hard this time around so nobody gives me that look anymore, but i usually erm, tend to forget again after the fourth day..
I lasted 2 whole weeks without skipping classes !
Wahey wahey!
But i hope it's not interfering with my dota games.
